Fear The Future? Read This

I want to share a story with you. One I hope resonates and helps if you're feeling stuck in fear of what the future may bring...

I've just arrived to one of my fave places to vacation standing in the closet of the same house I rented over 3 years ago in Sunriver, Oregon.

While I stand there putting my clothes away I have this thought...

"This time over 3 years ago my whole life was different". 

Whoa. The realization hits me.

I mean, completely different.

At the time I was married, going about my career as I had for the past 17 years, raising my daughter, doing all the mom things, just living life "status quo". What I didn't realize at the time, I was in some serious denial of just how unhappy I was. Distracted by the busyness of life, one day flowing into the next, years passing by quickly.

You know, where you're doing all the things you think make you happy, following all "the rules", only to be in utter denial about how it all turned out. Not that any of the players are bad or at fault, it's just somewhere along the way you fell asleep. You're not present in it. It's all passing you by.

And you lose yourself along the way. Wondering "is this all there is? Is this what I really want?"

But in 2019 everything began to change... 

The universe had other plans for me, plans I never would have anticipated, nor would have believed if you had told me. In fact I would have said you're crazy AF.

As I stood there it hit me.

All of my worry for how things are going to work out in the future - my hopes and dreams, if I'll be with the love of my life or alone forever, wondering if my business will be successful, basically all the anxiety of what's to come of my life...

I didn't have to worry, because you never know what's going to happen.

Just like I didn't know 3 years ago all that was to come and my life would completely change.

I'm now single, divorcing, alone for the first time in 24 years, no longer in a career that spanned 20 years with a salary, health insurance and retirement, but rather on my own trying to build an online business, sold my house, now living in the city (not my fave), with no idea where I'm going, where I'll end up, if I'll find that love I seek or end up alone.

I woke up to the reality I was no longer in love with my husband. He's the nicest person, but we grew apart. No one's fault. It just is.

I woke up to the reality that I was deeply unhappy. 

I woke up to what it felt like to be alive again. Have a passion for life and focus.

And as I stood there in this closet I thought to myself, are you happier now?

Yes, yes I am actually.

I might be alone, I might not know what the future will bring, and sometimes its downright terrifying, but I knew in that moment,

I was going to be ok.

Because even though I may not know what the next three years will bring, at least I know it can be better than I even imagine. More than I've wished, or manifested.

We think we know, but we don't. 

You can plan,

You can speculate,

You can do all you can to control it with all you have.

But really you have no idea. Anything can happen. 

And it does.

Your relationship could end next week, next month, or you could lose your career. 

But it's ok, because there's the possibility that it can be better than anything you can possible dream up.

So stop worrying so much. 

Because all that you're wishing for right now at this very moment, could not only happen, but it can be better than what's beyond your wildest dreams.

Now I'm not saying it's been easy. It's been painful. But I wouldn't change a thing because I can honestly say, it's better.

I may not have that dream home in the woods yet, nor be with the love of my life, but what I do have is my freedom to live life the way I want, I'm fully awake and have the opportunity to build my dream business to help other women live their dream life, and most importantly...

the knowing of the strength I have to do it afraid. 

Learning to trust that what is meant for me WILL not only show up, but will stay.

If it's meant for me I can't fuck it up and if it's not, well it will fall away as it should for my highest good and I will lovingly say goodbye.

Whatever will come next I now know I can move through it, and will be more than ok.

And so will you

Believe it.

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